I feel like I'm finally in love, the problem is?

that I am married. Have been for 15yrs. I was abused as a teen and the only way to get out of the abuse was to find my escape and get married. Been with same guy 25yrs and tried to make it work but he has also turned out to be mentally and emotionally abusive to me and my kids. I have tried to make it work but he is very contolling.. .things I did see when i met him but unfortunately was blinded with my desperation to get away from abuse. Now things are getting wrose with him. He is going thru midlife crisis cruising with sports car, staying out drinking, cavorting with young waitresses (asking them to meet him at other places)etc. After years of this, I am starting to hate him. I dont believe i was ever "in love" with him, but really liked him at one point. Some time ago I met a guy whom i feel connected with, same interests, chemistry etc. I think NOW i am in love. I think of him all the time & want to be with this person who i feel is everything i truly want.